Beginning in 2006, and for several years following, we were on a constant roller-coaster ride of emotions as we got devastating news, and experienced the steady falling-away of Gary's mind. On top of that were the secondary trials of finances, insurance changes, moving, changes in lifestyle, etc. There were many, many tears shed over those years. Lately, most days, it has not been so bad, emotionally. Acceptance has a lot to do with that. This is who we are. We have Alzheimer's Disease in our marriage. Proactively looking for blessings helps too. Gary is not unhappy. I actually think he is content as he lives "in the moment" and I enjoy my family, and my friends, and my painting. I enjoy being with Gary. We sit together on the sofa and watching Bull Riding, until he falls asleep. I read the Bible to him sometimes, during the morning when he is alert. Today I picked his apple up off the floor for him and he spoke to me. "Thank you," he said.
"To You I shall offer a sacrifice of thanksgiving and call upon the name of the LORD." Psalm 116:17
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“In those moments when I have found myself gasping for air, feeling that I was going under, I’ve discovered that gratitude truly is my life preserver. Even in the most turbulent waters, choosing gratitude rescues me from myself and my runaway emotions. It buoys me on the grace of God and keeps me from drowning in what otherwise would be my natural bent toward doubt, negativity, discouragement, and anxiety.” DeMoss
"When prayer teams up with gratitude, when we open our eyes wide enough to see God's mercies even in the midst of our pain, and when we exercise faith and give Him thanks even when we can't see those mercies, He meets us with His indescribable peace. It's a promise." DeMoss
Here's a short video to help you in your search for the blessings all around you: :)